Thoughts.

My interview is coming up on Monday. I am really excited. Surprisingly not nervous. Like at all. I have thought somewhat about the questions that they may ask me. But, I plan on just speaking the truth. Telling them that I feel God has told me to go, to apply to serve. I will let Him take it from there.

Lately I feel as if very few people understand me. This feeling has begun to fade a little since I have been home from camp but not much. I sit and I talk with people from work and just try to explain my reasoning behind some of my decisions and thought processes and it is like they just don't get it. They look at me like I am crazy.

Recently Kelly and I were talking about the idea of loosing our minds. I feel as if though I have lost my mind for Christ. Literally lost my mind. And there are only a handful of people who understand what I am talking about. And, it is not as though I can even explain it. If I sat here and tried to explain what I am talking about it wouldn't make sense. And the more I focus on Jesus and I let Him consume me, the crazier I feel. Likewise, the feeling begins to fade if my attention begins to wane. I don't want to loose this feeling. As I told Kelly it is the most joyous yet maddening feeling I have ever experience. I wouldn't want it any other way.